{Wednesday, May 11, 2011} 12:13 AM
I am not feeling any better since school started. Having not enough sleep, can't sleep.

My mood is like cranky all the time and i am sensitive with small things and make a big fuss about it.

And i guess everyone knows, i am not happy with my current job now. With the thoughts of quitting, yet still can't find a job. I'm losing my balance and the coolness that i once had. And starting to lose interest in my job.

Talking about making new friends in school. It's easy to say than do. Imagine 14 of the students are also working and in the same plight as me. You know is ain't easy at all.

I don't know if i am still tied down with the past. I can't seem to really be open and let go off myself. Trying to portray and acting as if you are happy when you are actually not. It's difficult.

My friends doesn't have the same interests as me, similar likings. Sometimes is hard to ask them out for movies, stuffs etc. Even though i know they will still accompany me but deep down i will feel bad about it. And i feel that i am relying on them too much. i'm really a bad friend.

Trying to balance your career, dreams and what you want to do in life is really difficult.

I'm aiming to go for japanese lessons next year and probably diving in this year or next year to confirm see if i have the time to do all these stuffs. Any willing people who have the same interest tell me and join me~

I need life and i need friends! I don't want to work and study all day long.