{Saturday, October 30, 2010} 10:08 PM
I don't know what to put as a title for this post.

This week is a very very terrible week for me. My emotions are up and down. But still it is made up of downs. Work is so stress. I am flooded with yield test, lots of thinking, stress. I lost my appetite for this week. Alot of things happened. Like, problems with cleaner. First time ever i was scolded and blasted with so many hokkien vulgar like cb, lj, knn, kns and then consecutive of lj, lj, and more lj. Then i need to made some major decisions about whether to stay on this company to go to a better company since i had job offer.

Esp that this week is my hod last week in the company. Yesterday was her last day. The company could not hire someone to replace her. And now i and heading the department alone. So today i went back to the company to work half day. Suddenly felt so emotional. The whole QA office is so quiet, with me alone with 2 empty desk that were once occupied by bing and john. Now left me alone. Can i handle everything just by myself? Will the company really get me an assistant like what they promise me? Maybe i should leave?

But i still thank selvan for coming down once in a while to check on me, cheer me up, tell me to relax and see if i can still manage.

I break down like probably 3 to 4 times this week. Yesterday was my best mood since i completed my project: yield test for 50plus products, all done alone with occasional assistance from bing.

Today, i also feel scare and there is this fear in me. The attitude of chee like change, i can feel it. And in warehouse, everyone's attitude towards me is weird. Kind of very friendly towards me but still, i don't know was it in a good way or bad way. Outbound people still ok...But i know things are bad with people from sheng siong. Details i won't elaborate, people whom i spoke to should roughly know. I just hope that inbound don't get influence by sheng siong about the ridiculous rumours they keep on talking about me.

And for goodness sake! I can understand cantonese. So stop talking about me in cantonese when i am in front of all of you, like as if i don't understand canto.

Haa...i need to chill out and i need someone to talk to.