{Saturday, October 9, 2010} 10:57 PM
I am thinking about lots of stuff these 3days, which is just right after my confirmation.
I am confuse right now.
I don't know whether to send it out or not. Maybe i should send it out? To both? Since i may or may not get it.

But at the same time, i don't feel like backing out now. There is this feelings of attachment. The things i can gain in the future makes me feel like maybe i shouldnt back out.

But i really think i should send it out tommorrow and then the other one i should wait for the email reply =_= confuse, confuse just when i am starting to gain my confidence.

It doesnt harm to try. And i will always try to aim higher for my own sake. Hope i can stand by this point of view.