{Thursday, March 25, 2010} 12:27 PM
I am still unable to open my mouth.
At most only can open to one finger wide. Any wider will mean pain for me.
On the first thought when i remove the splinter, i sincerely believe i could actualy start eating mash up food. But eating that is giving me quite a lots of troubles especially when brushing my teeth, cleaning up my teeth. So i end up returning to liquid food. I am going depress from staying at home all day,

the boredness is killing me.
the loneliness is killing me.
the neck pain from sleeping only at one position for so many days is killing me.
the tiredness is killing me.
the fact that i couldnt fall asleep is killing me.
the jealousy is killing me.
the fact that people couldn't understand me is killing me.
the sadness in me is killing me.
the fact that i need accompany to go out is also killing me.

I am so bored staying at home all day. No one to talk to except my mum and dad.
Friends are all so busy with their stuffs that you actually feel that they don't have time to bother about you and you also wouldnt want to trouble them with all ur troubles. At this point of time i really feel that i am so so unpopular with people. I am really jealous of people who always have friends around them. Maybe this just shows that i didn't work hard in the past to care for the people around me and now this is my retribution.

I am jealous of people who could actually devote to faith and religion. For me until now, i couldnt find something which is suitable for me, something which i could devote in. In times you will feel that you have nothing to rely on. People with faith often have stronger self and they will be able to fight with the evil and overcome fear. For me i rely on people giving me their faith to fight the evil and overcome the fear in me.

"So here i will have to thanks my sister and her husband and her CHC friends for the cards and gifts, messages, blessings and their prayers. Same things applies to my auntie whom i know is also praying for me. Then Kum mui and the gardenians who are also praying for me, i am glad that i had my attachment there and know you lovely people. Lastly my family esp my mum and dad who spend almost the whole night taking care of me during the crucial period of Post op day 3 and 4 and until now. Even though you all don't know this blog. But you people are the people who help me go through the first difficult and crucial week of my post operation."

Going through this operation let me learn lots of lessons. With a new face, i really want to make a change in my life as well as myself in the future.

i really feel better now after writing all these stuff here. The new blogskin also looks very pleasing=) I change that in 10 mins. Fastest record for now. Praise me xD

I haven been uploading photos because i lost my hp cable, cannot transfer it out. Bluetooth doesnt work for my laptop also. Will upload all up when i am able to transfer the photos out.