{Saturday, May 9, 2009} 12:10 AM
These 2 days we end school early.
Finally can see the sun, the daylight when we go home.

Is was suppose to be a happy day. But sometimes things just mess everything up.
Family, friends.

Really dunno what to say liao. Feel so disappointed until now.
I hate rejection whereby u can see that whoever is giving u that kind of annoyed look when u do nothing at all or trying to convey something.
Or rejection whereby u can see from the way they sms like just telling u that u are disturbing them or trying to brush u off with a reason.
Or calls that pissed u off.

Fustrations and anger just overwhelmed me when i experience these kind of things.
To the state that i dunno what to do and end up crying for nothing.
I feel so childish crying for people like that.

Have been tolerating such rejection behaviors people has been giving me. Each day and everytime.
Trying to get used to it, be that will always be a 20% inside me that can't get used to it.

I need support sia...someone who will be my listening ear. Even though people around me say they will support whatever decision i make. Eventually they are always the ones who will left u behind and turn their back on you.

And i don't understand why when u did so much for one person, and that person will never appreciate what u done for them. When u need something from them, u will never get any help from them. Next time i shall not do so much thing for anyone anymore.

Never gonna trust someone or rely on someone to do certian things just for u.

Seriously, i give up liao.
Gonna be firm and totally independent on myself.
I need to be strong to endure all these things.

If u reject someone in a more pleasant way, not intending to brush someone off.
Probably things wont end up like that.
I need to cool down.

Until the end, no one really understands me. Maybe i am in the wrong. but this time round i am not going to say sorry, cos this time round, u really upset me. no matter how u think or i think.