{Wednesday, April 1, 2009} 12:34 AM
Gonna blog another post today before i go to sleep.

Today i feel extremely emo.
Probably i was affected by the on going headaches until now.
Mum refused to let me take panadols cos she say is not good for the body.
So i didnt take any.

Another reason is that i have been watching sad and sadistic drama yesterday and today.
And...
I know i shouldn't go read other people's blog.
Actually i hate reading other people's blog.

Sometimes their post makes me more emo.
Sometimes it makes me feel jealous.

I am jealous becos my friends have all decide their future, what they want to be etc.

Cos the ME until now is still confuse about what she wan to do in the future.
And she is beggining to feel that this isnt what she wanted to do.
Even though she doesnt want to be in this anymore but she can't find any other things that can interest her anymore.

I feel like i am running away from reality.

I guess the shadows in the past still affect me alot alot.
But until now also dunno who to blame.
Maybe everyone is at fault.
If i wasnt so stubborn in the past.
Maybe alot of things would change.
I wont feel so emo, and maybe i would have more people to rely on.