{Monday, November 3, 2008} 11:01 PM
These 2 days should be the most happiest day of my life and my sis life.

Cos yesterday is my sis wedding and today is my sis birthday.

I noe i should be happy for her and for myself also but instead i feel sad.

My first emotion is sad instad of bing hapy that i can have the whole room for myself.

i dun feel any happy at all..

Becos for the whole of my 18 years i hav been sharing the room with sis.

Suddenly the room became so empty, an empty bed with no one sleeping at all.

Even though is tiring, but i still miss the time where we have small sister's talk before we go to sleep

and the times when i help my sis to massage her back when she is tired.

And how she always try to help my and be my listening ear i am facing problems from sch or at home.

She is always the one who has been encouraging me and staying by my side.

Even though she will always still be back and i will still see her...

But today is the day i feel the most sad and lonely in my life.

Damn i seriously hate lonliness becos it jus makes me feel scare and afraid cos it makes me tink of my secondary sch life which is so unbearable.

Thank goodness there is no sch tml cos i dun wan anybody to see my goldfish eyes.